I just wanna be naked!

Az and I are in the back of a car. We seem to be alone so we start fooling around a little. (I can't remember exactly what we were doing, but I remember feeling free enough to fully release every scream and moan!)

Suddenly, a head appears in the front passengers seat - it's Az's brother, J. At this point, I realize that we are in what seems to be a mini van - I thought it was a car? Az's brother M is in the middle seat. How could they have been in here the whole time?! I'm very embarrassed, significantly more-so when M appears (irl I don't like being too cuddly with Az in front of people, but especially around those I perceive as lonely and/or bitter).

I'm not sure where this scene ends and the other begins, but next thing I can recall: I am in the bathroom naked, but with the door open (I usually do this irl when I first get out of the shower to let some cool air in - though, I'll only crack it when people are home) I freely walk out of the bathroom, completely in the naked, to dry off and enjoy the air (I also do this every chance I get, but only when home alone). All of a sudden, I realize the room is full of people (I don't remember who)! Why Didn't I check, I always check!

I find myself in the bathroom again. Although, this time, my cousin is standing in front of the mirror. (I didn't notice this in the dream but I guess I couldn't see her face in it. I should have been able to, considering the angle) I know it's her ... I don't know what she's doing exactly, but it looks as though she's applying make-up. For some reason I don't really mind her being in here with me (typically, I'm uncomfortable sharing the bathroom). She doesn't seem to mind either, or even notice that I'm here. It's more that she doesn't notice, which is strange.

At some point she turns around, still not acknowledging my presence. She has a man's face! Well, it is still her face, but she's wearing no make-up, has a mustache and goatee and her hair is shorter. (I don't think that was the case when I viewed her from behind - I thought I saw long hair?)

We're not in that bathroom anymore or even in the same house for that matter - we seem to be in a room that resembles my memory of her mother's room. In this scene, I watch as she walks out the front door, still silent and serious. I think she's also wearing men's clothing?

Now I am in what seems to be a school/daycare of some sort. I have two little girls of the age of 5 or so under my supervision - I don't think I am their teacher or regular supervisor. I don't know why I'm doing this (I like kids, but I don't like to be in charge of them).

I can't get the little blond girl to listen to me - while the other girl is well-mannered, the blond keeps luring her to run off. I get the feeling that there is some sort of disaster going on outside, so I have to keep them in here.

***

Since Az and I live with his family - and his very Christian mother who does not believe in 'premarital sex' - we seldom have any true privacy! When we are so lucky, I tend to be worried on some level we will be get caught or that I am being too loud ... so full release (emotional and physical) is rare.

I was telling Az a story about my cousin the other say - probably the reason for her appearance. The cross-dressing thing was likely inspired by a she-male photo I'd seen before bed!

Az's little nephew has been coming on Saturdays - he's around the age of 4, I think. I sometimes day dream about being good with kids, particularly him more recently. Little kids always tend to love me and I love the idea of connecting with them, but irl there is always anxiety attached.

a Deli Snooze

I've lost many details of this one, but the latest scene I can recall: I am standing in the middle of the deli, broom in hand, getting ready to sweep when I look up and notice that someone is trying to get my attention from across the aisle, on the other side of the counter. It turns out to be the cute brunette (although she's tried every hair color, which in itself is somehow arousing to me?) from produce, and she has apparently been standing there for quite a few minutes now. She waved, giving me a look that I translated to, "finally you notice!" I think she just wanted to say good-bye (I guess her shift is over), since she literally just waved and then set off for the next aisle that leads to the front doors.

Next scene I can recall: I am lying on the prep table in the deli; apparently, I've fallen asleep here. I look over (the prep table is located behind the deli counter, and off to the side where customers don't usually notice immediately) and notice that there is a man, who somewhat resembles 'Borat', waiting to place an order. I don't know how long he's been standing there, or how long I've even been sleeping, but I jump up, and try to play it off. It's too late though - he already knows that I had fallen asleep. He's not angry at all though -- in fact, he seems thoroughly amused. I don't remember him commenting, but I do remember his smile and the sight of his laughter (I couldn't really hear anything).

As I walk toward the center of the deli (where we usually greet the customers, since there is so much crap on the counter to the far left and right), I think of how messy my hair seems to be. Ugh, how embarrassing. For some reason, I just can't open my eyes enough - it's too bright. I'm trying to, but I can't see well. This is so frustrating ...

***

I do not know the girl in produce, but Az's brother dated her for a short time, so I am aware of her bi-sexuality. Before I knew that about her, my ex worked in produce with her, so I'd noticed her even then; she definitely fit my idea of cute. Becoming aware of her bi-sexuality however has led me to wonder whether her smiles are polite or something a little more. ^_^

The other day, she needed the mop as I was putting it away. We exchanged friendly glaces and said hello, which probably opened the schema associated with my curiosity of her, inspiring the dream situation.

My eyes are actually very sensitive to light (too much exposure to florescent lighting gives me a slight headache). I've never had trouble seeing at work, but the light does affect me negatively.

Dream Moods suggests that my lack of sight could signify difficulties and/or errors in judgment.

This One Almost Made Me Late for Work!

I am in our living room, present, but not really participating in the conversation going on. Az's cousin, Belle, has stopped by for a visit. I recall hearing that she's entered a couple beauty pageants, and won some money being one of the runner ups. I am thinking about how I also heard that she cried over not winning - which I think is silly. If it were me, I'd rather not win .... take the money and run, is more like it! ;)

I am watching her from across the living room as she walks over to the dishwasher and back. She is very pretty - I notice her long, tan legs and big, dark, full hair, sparkling brown eyes, and her gorgeous smile. I compare her to myself and decide that, even though I do find myself attractive as well, she definitely fits the 'pageant' category where I do not (lol - I consider myself to be in 'porn-star category' - or maybe something more 'cutesy' ... but not a 'super model' or an 'American beauty). She's quite ditzy as well, and very happy all the time ... so even the personality fits. :)

At some point, Az and I are getting ready to leave for work, but Az says something that makes it seem as though we may not have to go in. I am confused by this, and insist that there is no reason we wouldn't have to. At some point, I hear my cell phone ringing but for some reason, I assume it's the house phone.(which is odd, considering the rings are totally different.)

We are now in a car(although, we are both passengers, which is odd, considering he usually drives) but I am not sure who is driving - I think it's his mom. I assume she is dropping us off at work, but then I notice that it is snowing heavily outside (maybe that is what Az meant as to why we might not have to go in? Why is it snowing in the summer, though?)

As the weather calms down, we arrive at our destination, which is my parent's house (Why are we HERE?) Az seems to walk in like it's no big deal, but I am trying to figure out how we got so far from home in what seems like a few minutes.(For some reason I didn't question the oddness of freely walking into my parents house when I haven't seen them in years.)

***

While I was half awake that morning, I overheard a conversation between Az's mom and brother about Belle (her beauty pageants and crying), which helped to produce some of the dream details. I must have dozed back off soon after that because the phone I heard in the dream was actually the alarm on my cell going off, irl Since the dream justified ignoring it in my mind, I was almost late for work! >.<