She Loves Me Not ... She Loves Me? o_0

I am in the basement of my parent's house (quite an an odd setting, for me - but I think, in the dream, it's where I live). First thing I can recall is laying on the pull-out sofa bed that is against the wall where a bookcase used to be (at least, the last time I was there) with Eadoin and a friend (I'm not sure if she is more Eadoin's friend or mine, but I am uneasy around them both).

At some point, it seems as though Eadoin and Rook are back together as a couple (irl, they broke up a while ago, and she has long since moved on). I get the idea that since Eadoin is willing to give Rook another chance, that she is also willing to give me another chance (irl, I assume that she blames and strongly dislikes me for her idea of what went wrong in their relationship). There is a scene I can recall where they are kissing, which is mostly what gives me the impression that they are back together.

On the sofa-bed, we are talking and goofing around. Her personality seems more like my cousin, Moxie's, but then again, Eadoin was always rather timid and reserved around me. Her drunken personality was however, similar to Moxie's actual personality, which could be where the connection was drawn. I find myself wishing I could feel safe enough to truly express myself, but it's difficult. I think it's because I am wary of the situation in general - why is she okay with me all of a sudden? Why is she so 'free' around me?

As I catch a few glimpses of her, I notice that she has slight tan lines on her back, but that her legs are still very pale. With this, I wonder if perhaps being tan in the summer is not as important to her as it is to me. In another scene, where she is walking by the deli with Rook, I notice that she looks wider from the back than she used to - it seems like she has gained some weight. (A fellow co-worker has put on a lot of weight as of recently, which has been disappointing to me, considering she was once very attractive. Because this coworker has always slightly resembled Eadoine in my mind, perhaps I projected this onto her?)

Back on the sofa-bed, I think of asking if everything is really okay (with our situation) for reassurance, but decide against it. I also think of asking what went wrong in the relationship she seems to have broke off in order to go back to Rook, but figure it's not my place. I think at this point, I am trying to 'be free' in the only way I know how... so, I playfully plant a kiss on her mouth, biting her lower lip, hoping to initiate some action ^_-. She smiles and giggles, but backs away, seeming a little uncomfortable with that sort of thing.

At this point, I realize that I had shut the basement door (since I had sexual thoughts at the time, I remembered where I was (my parent's house) and worried that I'd get in trouble). I remember that my parents knew nothing of my 'lesbian tendencies', so I realize that, as long as there are no boys with us, there is nothing to worry about.

Now, we (Eadoine, the friend, and I) are all sitting on the floor by the television. I don't remember what was said, but I feel like Eadoine is being very bossy. Something on the tv reminds me of the manga series I've recently started reading, Black Lagoon, and so I mention it to her. Surprisingly, she seems interested. I don't take her to be much of a manga-chick - maybe we have more in common than I thought? I decide to go upstairs to my bedroom to retrieve the first two books of the series for her.

Rook is in my bedroom, for some reason - I'm a little surprised to find him there, but not terribly (it should have been a little creepy for me). As I am grabbing the mangas, he comes up behind me and lightly nibbles on my neck. I let him do it for a moment, because it's just the right spot, but when it 'clicks' what is happening, I run back downstairs ... "what is with him - didn't he learn his lesson when he lost her the last time he fooled around?!"

***

This dream took place at my parent's likely because they have been on my mind more lately, as my mother and I are trying to 'mend' our relationship (or lack thereof).

Oh, the fun I could have, if only I could learn to free myself of the guilt and worry by becoming lucid! >.<

Cat-nap After Work ...

I'm standing in our living room, when I notice a cat outside on the front deck. I don't remember letting the cat in, but next thing I know, it is in our living room. This is when I realize that I know this cat - it's Tiger! (it belongs to a friend, with whom I used to live) It looks just like him, too (fat with orangey-golden stripes) and acts just like him, spreading himself out on the floor, rolling back and forth playfully; the way he sits still with such a 'kingly' expression brings back silly memories. He always liked to wander around the neighborhood, doing his own thing, but I never knew he wandered this far!

I remember how Harley and Sheba (Tiger's doggy 'siblings') used to love to torture him (playfully, of course!) Tiger would usually mind his own business (although, sometimes he would provoke an attack), when all of a sudden, Harley would go after him, hoping to catch and play as if he were his own personal play-thing. Sheba would help, or act as the referee if it got too out of hand.

This memory triggers a curiosity of how Ali (the dog that I currently live with) might interact with a kitty friend - as far as I know, she's never been with a cat before.

Suddenly, Ali notices, and begins to chase him. Usually she is easily fearful, but she seems to be having fun. She catches him, and rolls around with him a few times ...

Eidan's mom is in the room with me, and we are laughing at the situation. I get the idea that she is slightly worried that Ali might hurt Tiger, but I explain that I know this cat ... and that this is how he likes to have fun.

***

The daughter of the friend I lived with called me (after months of little to no contact) before my nap, which likely opened my 'Tiger Schema' (during the brief phone call, I thought of asking how the animals were doing). I also wonder, every once in a while, how Alli would interact with Harley, Sheba, or another doggy friend, since Bubba (the older dog that lived here) died over the winter. Sometimes, I wonder if she's lonely and would like a new friend. These sporadic thoughts could have also triggered the dream situation. ;)